So I'm definitely not the type of person who would drink and drive my car, but I find that I'm constantly drunkenly riding my bike home. At the face of it, it's probably 10 times more dangerous than a car. The clincher is that ridiculous cost savings over a cab, and I get home sooner. I'll have to keep working on that one.
For a while I was stressing out about the girl who I met in Milwaukee. I called a few times and got some feeble text message back. I was talking to Billabout it and he pretty much gave the attitude of "Even if she is interested, who cares? You're barely going to see her." That made sense to me and I'm not too concerned about it anymore. On to bigger and better things...
This past Saturday I went my favorite coffee shop to put a dent in 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea. After ordering, I saw a pretty girl sitting at her laptop. She had all of the attractive hipster traits: Dark hair, nice face, leggings with those stirrup things, etc. I felt like I definitely needed to sit near her if I were to get the balls to say anything. We were seated about five feet from each other for at least a half hour. I couldn't help but constantly glance over to see if she'd notice me. She once leaned over to pick up the pen that she dropped and I tried to make contact. I'm not sure what she was thinking, but she looked at me (no smile) on her way up. Now if I were to ask someone what they thought of the situation, there's a chance they would say "well that was good because she dropped her pen on purpose to give an excuse to look over." A clumsy-ass like myself , though, just thinks she dropped it like a normal person.
A little while after the pen-dropping incident she packed up her things and left. I often tell myself things like "If I see her again, I'll totally say something the next time," but I'm really hoping I don't, so I don't have to risk the rejection. I'm always afraid she'll have a boyfriend or think I'm a tool (those have been the big winners for the past lifetime). I'll tell you what, blogworld, though it's very unlikely I will see this girl again, I'll definitely say something, no matter how awkward.
As I've mentioned before, my gym is stacked with beautiful girls. As of late a taller Asian girl has caught my attention. Now even though I would be totally interested in talking to/meeting her, I've yet to say anything and probably won't. But I've been trying to look for some indicator that I should say something. Today we walked right past each other with no one around. I tried to make eye contact (without some ridiculous stare) and got absolutely nothing. Was that just my answer right there? Or doesn't that mean anything?
I have to admit that I do the same thing with someone I'm attracted to. I spend a lot of time in bookstores. I'm always trying to figure out a way to subtly get someone's attention with little to no effort. I read too much into things sometimes, too, like a pen dropping.
ReplyDeleteOf course that guy leave without me even saying a word and I feel bummed and relieved at the same time.